38 weeks! Just 2 weeks to go until my due date. Seriously, where did the last nine months go? It feels like just yesterday that I found out I was pregnant and now I’m nearly a mum of two!
I mentioned in my 36 week update that the tiredness has really hit me hard again. I’m falling asleep when little T naps and combined with the fact that nausea has returned, it feels like I’m back in the first trimester. I’m grumpy and really emotional- everything is making me cry at the moment! I’m not being a great mummy to T and the nesting definitely hasn’t kicked in yet!
I’m feeling like labour is still a long way off. We’re far from ready although we have finally sorted out a new carseat for T and cleaned his old car seat for baby. I’ve even got a wardrobe full of washed little baby clothes. I haven’t packed my hospital bag yet and the house isn’t spotless like I feel it needs to be!
Last week little T played with one of his friends who came out in a chickenpox rash two days later, meaning she was infectious at the time. This means that T could get chickenpox at some point within the next two weeks, which would be a nightmare with a newborn. So, I’m really hoping baby is late so there won’t be the risk of him/her catching chickenpox when they’re tiny.
My pelvic pain got significantly worse last week. I had a couple of days where I literally couldn’t walk and ended up crawling around the house. Little T thought it was hilarious and called me ‘Mummy cat’! I was slightly terrified of the prospect of being housebound with a two year old for the rest of my pregnancy. Fortunately things started to improve and are now much better (although not as good as previously). I managed to get a physio appointment within a few days and she said that my left hip drops when I walk and my muscles are really tight because my pelvis is so unstable. She gave me a pleasantly painful massage and some exercises to do.
I’ve finally got some stretch marks on my tummy and my skin on the top of my bump feels quite sensitive. I remember last time I didn’t get any stretchmarks until 37 weeks so I wasn’t surprised to get them late again this time. I also seem to have lost my ankles, so if anyone finds them, could you please return them as I quite liked them.
I had another midwife appointment. All is well with the baby still. We also discussed VBAC again. She had 3 VBACs herself and has always been really supportive. I’m planning on staying active and at home for as long as possible as I don’t want to go into hospital and be ‘on the clock.’ She was happy for me to do this and said if I felt a bit ‘pushy’ at home to phone the community midwives and they would come and check on me and call an ambulance if necessary! She also said the most important thing is to believe that you can do it. This is something I’ve been struggling with as although I am desperate for a VBAC, the fact I’ve never given birth normally before makes it hard for me to believe I can do it and part of me feels that it’s bound to end up in another c-section.
I think I need to really try and change my beliefs. Instead of thinking I won’t manage a VBAC, I’m trying to think, why wouldn’t I? Why would my body not be able to birth a baby when millions of women have managed it before me? I so want to go into my labour with a positive mindset. I’m still listening to my hypnobirthing track and want to re-read my hypnobirthing book. I also need to print out my birth affirmations and write a birth plan. So, a couple of more things to go on the ‘to-do’ list!
This could be my very last bump diary update, but part of me is hoping I manage to do a 40 week one too!